"After years of suppressing emotions and thoughts about abuse, I was disconnected from the parts of me that made me - Me. Relationships are built through regular communication. Daily journaling has been an excellent way to build a new relationship with myself - a relationship that's founded on honesty and vulnerability. It's an opportunity to check in with myself every day and ask, "What am I feeling?" "What am I thinking about?" and "What matters to me?" Christina Enevoldsen
Christina's book "The Rescued Soul - a writing journal for the Healing of Incest and Family Betray, is a great tool that will be the conduit for reconnecting you to you.
For you... to explore you.
What is so interesting to me, is that in the first days and weeks after realizing I was a victim of sexual abuse....I wrote.
I wrote and I wrote and I wrote.
What I didn't know, is that I was writing my way back to me.
I also, was very anxious IF I didn't have a writing tool with me.
I traveled with pencil and paper for years.
At one point, a sentiment arose "I am looking for myself, I don't know who I am or that I was even missing."
It was completely accurate.
Abuse and the survival personality that arises to live in an abusive home eclipses who we truly are.
When we are made to hide our feelings and our emotions - we are literally losing ourself.
When we are made to do things to make others happy at the cost of our own happiness; we are turning away from who we are.
Often these people pleasing survival skills create a whole persona that isn't us.
I recall also waking up to me and looking around my home and I didn't see Me anywhere. There was decorations and things around; but nothing that had a Feeling of Me in it.
My survival self lived as me for 46 years.
I am now 10 years old; going on 11.
I love that I have been building a new relationship with me.
This one is based on or built upon my ability to be completely and brutally honest with myself. Even at the cost of losing relationships.
My main, and first priority, is being true to me.
It has been a wild, sorrowful, grief stricken, exciting, awe-inspiring, soul defining, courageous, free fall into being Me!