“What is your silver lining” was asked on the Dr. Robin show today. What wonderful gift have you found in the midst of great sorrow or trial? What did you find out about yourself, or what surprised you as you wadded through a mess?
While seeing What Is, it is also good to keep an eye on the silver linings, to watch for the gifts that seem to be born in darkness and pain.
Looking backwards 4 years, the gifts are so plentiful that I would have much trouble sharing them all with you.
The greatest gift of all is me, just to be able to be with myself, as myself and not be wishing, seeking dreaming, desiring to be anyone but me. I love that the most. I am an original work of God.
I love that I am me and that I am exactly as I was meant to be, and simply the perfect rendition of me, and that no one can do a better job at being me than Me!
I am a work in progress, I am not the complete Me yet, and will not be until I die. Then you can say the project Beth has been completed.
The second is being able to be here now, to be in this moment exactly as it is, and not forever taking a ride in my mind to a better place or for something to be better, etc, but to arrive as me in this moment, priceless!
Another is to see all humans as Spiritual beings on a souls journey, to see all doing the best that they can for the level of understanding and clarity they have, and the phrase I love to use, is “forgive them for they know not what they do.”
And another huge thing is to no longer be in charge of the Universe! Yes at one time I was in control and every thing had to follow my orders and desires or I was unhappy!
I love that I am not in control of others lives, their happiness, their pain, their pleasure, I love love love that I have my world and they have theirs. I love being free to be in my business and I love that all are drivers in their own boats! I am way not the river master, just another lady floating along in life, wondering what is around the next bend!
Nature is another great place for me to rest. When my whole world seemed to be a place of trick mirrors, I clung to nature to find my present and it’s truth showed me the way.
The simple things bring tears to my eyes, and fill up my chest with breathless wonder. To see birds even just hopping along, or beavers floating on their backs oblivious to the next bend, to mama turtles lumbering slowly on dry land to lay their eggs, to even the sight of our yard freshly mowed, cloud formations, a patch of “forget-me-nots.” The list is endless….
Silver linings or God’s gifts, if you start to pay attention you will find them everywhere, angels in so many that you meet arriving with just the right information, the right book, the right thought, exactly at the perfect moment. All choreographed by the Universe for Me.
There are moments that I am breathless at the synchronicity of it all. How perfectly it is all laid out, how people are moved and orchestrated to be in the same place at the same time!
I am daily reminded, or minute by minute of just how not alone I am, how I am surrounded by examples of God taking care of me!
Like Einstein said “we can look at life as though nothing is a miracle or that everything is!”
Maybe when things are the darkest, the gifts shine the brightest! If we were told to look at the two sides, to see and accept the dark, but to also have one eye peeled to be the seeker of the gifts, maybe then in moments of great despair we could remain balanced.
I can recall days of huge amounts of truths that seemed to bend me over, they were so huge and the emotions so large that I would have to walk outside.
And outside there seemed to be so much peace, so many beautiful sounds, a million wonderful displays of God.
It seemed that I was in the land between both worlds, one of nature at it’s brightest and one of nature at it’s worst.
It seemed my spirit or my soul longed for the peace, love and joy, a foreign place for me, yet it seemed like a homecoming.
“Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound……”
