It is here, I am half way done with the 60-day challenge, which means I got up 30 days in a row and did yoga, which to me is amazing.
I felt good today doing the yoga, I was stronger in some places, less wobbly, and was able to hold the postures longer.
I watched for resistance, and found some in weird places, just odd little muscles holding back.
My shoulder muscles for sure seem always to be zapping up energy in postures where they are not required.
Also, my jaw muscles want to get involved, and they are in the way in Rabbit and actually when relaxed make my breathing easier and fuller.
My shoulders, neck and jaw are the three places where I stored all my resentment and stress.
It is odd, that my upper body was bracing and feels stiff, and my lower body is slack and yielding and weak.
I am thinking as my legs walk my truth as I lock my knees against things that are not good for me, this will balance out. And then my shoulders can relax and as long as I speak my truth, my jaw doesn’t have to clench in frustration.
I told those muscles to relax now, that I had a better grasp on life, and that they no longer had to stand guard against things I didn’t pay attention to.
It is like my body has been bracing itself for the next assault; knowing that I would go against the body to help/be/do for the others good, not mine.
Like any broken relationship it takes time to mend and build trust, but we can one posture at a time.
