Here we are on Day 29, and I discovered that not all my muscles are co-operating, that some are actually preventing me from doing a pose better.
It is like discovering you have this team that has been working against you on the inside, traitors.
How interesting to see that if I can relax these resisting muscles, the other ones don’t have to pull as hard and we get to go deeper in the pose.
I am not certain if this is normal, but it is normal for me.
It is like these muscles represent the subconscious parts of me, the underlying beliefs that tend to work against you, keeping you from moving forward.
When in Half Moon, Bikram will say “push push push, you can trust me,” or he will say “you are in fear…”
He is making us go beyond fear, beyond where we are comfortable.
He knows what holds us back, what is working against us, and he is pushing us and making us struggle to overcome those fears and resistance.
What he works mostly on is the resisting muscles and beliefs, weakening them while building up opposing ones.
He is tearing down while building up. This is incredible to me. For when I was sorting through the old me, I knew I had to bring in new on the other side.
He is tearing down our fears, our lack, and our insecurities.
It is the opposite of what I thought, I thought he was making me stronger, and he is by taking out the things that weaken who I am!
