When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.
~Victor Frankl
The more dramatic of a change you make, it shows just how far off base you were to begin with, and how far apart you were living from your own truth.
I remember writing, “I was so lost, and that I was going to go find myself, I didn’t know who I was or even that I was missing.”
That is how far off base I was, I literally had no idea who I was or even where to start looking for me, nor how to recognize me in my life.
I had so many ideals and beliefs that I followed that had nothing to do with my own experiences.
I marvel now at how I lived so lost onto myself, but so found in other’s lives, how I disappeared without another.
When you find yourself unable to move unless it is in tandem with another, there is a great possibility you have lost yourself and you don’t even know you are missing!
What is even scarier is to find the persons you have ridden tandem with are frauds, then what?
I was terrified standing there naked without a life of my own.
Dumped off due to the truth that came crashing in, I was left to reconstruct myself at 46.
It was freeing and terrifying at the same time.
I was finally able to make my own choice, and each and every new one I formed, was a layer of the new me.
Little by little, situation by situation, day by day a new me began to emerge.
I marvel now at the width and breath of life I lived without being aware that I wasn’t there.
No voice, no feelings, no emotions, no awareness of me.
Incredible to live a life without a self!
You literally can live blind and deaf, for you just simply follow.
How can you lead your life if you follow?
