“Language... has created the word "loneliness" to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word "solitude" to express the glory of being alone.”
Paul Johannes Tillich
I love that there are two ways to look at being alone.
I used feel much more alone surrounded by family than I feel now being separated from most, because at that time I didn’t know who I was.
I was always lonely…lonely for me.
What I fear more is being lonely with them, than being in solitude with my self.
Being in solitude with myself brings me great peace; being with others who seem to misread me would leave me very lonely.
Alone in a group and not fitting in…maybe you are only lonely in a group that isn’t a good fit.
So, even if I was with my family I would be alone and misunderstood, which is why I find it much easier to be alone in solitude with myself.
I am not sure if I will join the group of family, where I will leave my solitude behind, if there will come a time when I feel an opening that I can fit into, a space that will hold the new me I found.
I really don’t feel lonely but rather that I am honoring my truths and enjoying them in solitude.
In peace with my self.
