As I was reading Chapter Two of The Artist’s Way book by Julia Cameron, I found similarities between finding your artist self and leaving toxic relationships.
She is leading you forward suggesting ideas and things that will focus on self and in doing so you discover where you are standing and how you have been living and who has had their hands on the reigns of you.
Unblocking the Artist is like opening the eyes of those in denial.
Julia speaks of poisonous playmates and crazymakers and I see them as the dysfunctional family I was lost among where there was no space for my self.
She makes reference between giving up toxic thinking as giving up drinking. And those still enjoying the toxic beverages and the toxic mindset, will not be your cheerleaders and in fact will weaken your resolve.
The Artist Self is the self that is untouched by other’s influences, but whose sense of being comes from within and is connected to the Universe.
She is looking at this process from the self outward, where I was looking at leaving the mess of dysfunction.
I wasn’t trying to find an authentic artful self, but rather fleeing from the abusive family that I felt had stolen my self.
And it had, a pattern maker or follower had replaced my own artistic creative self, I had no personal connection to the Universe, I was plugged into an extension cord.
My sense of self flowed not from the Universe; it came from my mother/father/brother/sister/friend/anyone but the Universe and me.
When everything that was holding the definitions of me was shown to be very dysfunctional, I then seen my own dysfunctional self.
I saw what the extension cord was plugged into, and I unplugged them all.
It was the unplugging them that freed me to be available to hear the Universe, to pay attention to my body, my feelings, my emotions, to connect me back to me.
The definition of Universe is one song.
I am now singing one song… mine.
