While discussing the attributes of suicide, two different people suggested that the body is out of control…and neither felt it was ‘them’ that did it, but a whole other person, a self that they did not know.
I am very intrigued by how they see the person who almost died as someone different than them…and yet when they are well, or back on solid ground, that depressed person does not resemble the person who now has some control.
This led me to ponder that you can be out of control as a rock, who is incapable of moving…or out of control moving… incapable of stopping.
And it matters not whether you are moving or not moving, what matters is the lack of control.
This lack of control means something or somebody else has control over you.
You have lost owning your self.
This lost self and the found self are totally different.
A self that is under the control of a cult like religion and who has grown up in a dysfunctional family does not have control of her self at all.
We give up the rights to our own lives, choices, beliefs…we lose control of self movement.
No one says that a brainwashed person is out of control…we use that term only for moving things…yet it works the same for unmoving.
The staunch faithful will not make a move that goes against the teachings of the church…while being controlled by others, they themselves have no control.
They only control themselves to remain faithful to the other that is controlling them.
There is no self to control; they lost contact with the self.
They see themselves through the controller’s eyes.
Who would ever think that a person who is completely under the control of cult etc, is out of control? It seems like an oxymoron.
A very out of control controlled person.