There seems to be a time in life, where you get off the karmic wheel of your childhood, where you finally come to the end of the road where old beliefs, thoughts and ideas run dry, where you have uncovered, discovered, and recovered all parts of your self.
And you have decided what stays, what goes, what has value or no value, what is something I will use in my future and what is best left in the past.
As each old thought and belief came to surface, I had to replace it with a new one, one more suited for my self and was often less comfortable for the ‘other’.
Most of my replacement ideas, thoughts and beliefs are much more flexible and fit my spirit. They are filled with potential growth and expansion, unlimited space for creation.
The purging of my old self was difficult and painful at times and extremely liberating as well, the dying and rebuilding co-existing, the undoing and the re-doing. Each loss I mourned came with a new birth.
Just as they flip houses, I flipped myself, changing me from a worn out pattern into a more creative one.
I can’t imagine getting left in the old mind patterns and beliefs, stuck and unable to step out line, locked by fear and unable to shake off the chains of conditioning.
I feel at times I have forgotten from whence I came, and have a hard time remembering the darkness with so much Light, forgetting what it is like to live under the shadows of others, never finding your own spot in the sun...
My thanks all go to the Universe whose wisdom I seen in every lesson, gift and miracle, and who synchronized it all.
As I continue forth with my awareness my artist’s prayer is;
to remain faithful to the wisdom of my body,
to always pay attention to the gut feelings,
to stand with the truth no matter the cost,
to have faith and follow my own feelings,
to reach towards new experiences fearlessly,
to be a student of the Universe,
to accept all lessons with grace,
to never lose sight of what is,
to find my purpose,
to know who I am,
to be me…perfectly!
