Last night I was able to have an early viewing of my episode that David Cowardin and Lola Visuals created. I was a bit nervous...and was pondering why.
What I know, is that we (the outspoken) are not viewed as being kind...being compassionate or anywhere near loving. We are out to 'hurt' someone.
I spoke and shared to the people who are without a voice. I wasn't speaking to the ones who want me silent and who see me as bad.
I am speaking to encourage others to speak. Sharing in a hopeful manner. Opening up the space to stand like I stand.
I feel that between David and I, we accomplished what I had envisioned. That stepping away from abuse and the recovery from its affects...will free you to be in love, peace and joy. To be a you that is no longer tied to the strings of shame.
This is the stigma we are trying to shake lose, that it is UNKIND to speak out...for it makes you mean.
I didn't see me being unkind.
I didn't see me angry.
I didn't see me mean.
I did see my life in a 8 minute review...from abuse to recovery. The joys of following your soul. Of finding the comfort of nature for it never changes. A tree is a tree and it doesnt' change.
I saw me totally in love with myself and the awe that my art showed me the way.
I saw me showing me so others can see themselves.
Thanks David. Your gentle soul touched mine and together we can share and touch others. It is for the shameful. It is for those who can't stand. It is giving you courage to stand in your life...embrace who you are no matter where you find yourself.
I am proud of my episode, my journey, my art and My Lady....and me! We are on the Big Screen!