Who knew that the brain is responsible for how we live our lives? That it isn't what happens to us, or seemingly against us, but rather how our minds process life.
And how our brains are groomed or structured to respond in certain ways...very set precise ways; eliminating other reasonable options. And Fear is usually the barbed wire that holds it in place.
What has become so fascinating to me, is not the human condition of evil, but rather the way most minds cannot see it.
I lived for 46 years with a mind of one pathway and did not know of another way. I wasn't choosing one pathway, I lived in one pathway. It wasn't like I continued to make the same choice over and over, but rather there was only one choice that my mind recognized.
I feel that there is a consciousness evolution happening and that those in enough pain will be the first to traverse this road.
I was ripe for a breakdown out of denial. My mind was being worked on unbeknownst to me.
My body was showing signs of distress and giving up.
I was reading the Course of Miracles; which is to change your perception of life.
Yoga was working on my body, where the mind is manifested.
And, reality was so bold in front of me, it eclipsed the one 'true' pathway in my mind.
When it felt like my whole world fell apart, it was actually that my mind had expanded. I was now able to see and feel things that were kept from me by my mind.
To be aware of falling out of denial is to die while being born.
I was able to see the insanity of my mind and how it had eliminated choices for me.
This singular pathway now feels like abuse; where there is no choice.
Where there is no freedom to reason things out.
An abused mind, is one where there are no options, no way to see above, below and around each problem; but only one singular choice...that leads to the same outcome.
We see this in the addicted mind.
In the mind of dysfunctional families.
Where behaviors are replicated perfectly generation upon generation.
It isn't behaviors that lead the way, but the trained mind.
What I feel is beneficial to breaking the patterns of these minds, is what worked on my mind...or against its one pathway. And, that is to open up new pathways...
This means, Art, yoga, meditation, to name a few. It is to experience the self beyond the mind.
In Art, if you go out of your mind and create intuitively, you will be strengthening a new part of you to respond to life.
In Yoga, it is to bring the Mind back to the Body...which is reality.
Meditation...I focused on my breathing in yoga. It was meditative yoga. And this again puts space between you and your mind.
The space that will grow new choices.
I can tell immediately a mind that is without options. The ones I am most familiar with are religious minds...dysfunctional family minds. My old, one track mind.
I think what was worse than finding out my father was a pedophile and that my mother couldn't see that; was my mind.
How it truly hid reality from me...and in doing so, stole my life.
I was like the woman who couldn't see herself.
All I was was a programmed mind.
It is a miracle to be free of that program. And it was terrifying to make my own choices; but exhilarating beyond words.
While we think that the addict loves his drugs or that the perpetrators love to sow evil, it is more about being locked in the program unknowingly.
We are programmed as children.
Most, die as a program.
But, I believe there is an evolution going on that is recognizing where the real source of our pain is coming from. It isn't that we are making bad choices, and we can simply chose again, but rather that our brains have eliminated our choice...period.
And, I also believe that we are catching on to how to bring our minds into reality...as well as using our other senses.
To become as Gary Zukav writes "Multi-Sensory" humans.
For to rely solely on a programmed mind, is to live a life exactly as those who programmed it.
