"I am living my mother's un-lived life" Gloria Steinem
While listening to Gloria speak to Oprah...I heard her say these words.
I know this to be true.
There is a life that is beyond what we set out doing.
A life that isn't bound by religion.
Tied to family's perceived obligations.
Where being responsible blocks the roads to a life we want to live.
I also recognize that this sentiment may not enter into your awareness until you are older; when the life you lived and are living isn't the ones of your dreams. Where you dreams feel like distant memories.
I can safely say that I had no grand visions of what my life would be...or even should be. I was on a track of doing what was expected, and more importantly, what didn't upset the applecart.
I would say, I didn't freely consider Me and who that would look and present itself to the world.
The choices I made were not conscious...in that I ever looked at how they would impact me; but rather each choice had a greater impact on my outer world and those around me. I lived to serve others and to make things smoother- ironing out the wrinkles of other's bad choices.
Is it a LIVED LIFE, if you use your life in a codependent way for others?
Are you truly living your life; if none of your choices are solely based on your very own happiness?
I believe there is a movement; an awakening of souls who crave to LIVE this life.
Imagine the world where women are in control of their reproductive organs. Isn't that odd that so many are not. Literally; have no freedom to this.
I know, that I have been seen as the mental one, the crazy lady who wants to destroy the church, religion and family. When in actuality, I am trying to free women to live their own lives. And, not be an appendage of the church and or mother.
When some would say, "You are your mother's right hand...." it was literally true and her mind. I was grown in her image; we moved as one. And, I was also there to do much of what she didn't want to do or could handle or face etc. I was groomed to be her front man to ward off so many things that would have over-burdened her.
And, the church owned much of my body.
The un-lived life...is to be attached by invisible strings...to move only in step with the needs of church, faith, and family.
The burden of this is beyond what my mind now can hold.
I cut the strings.
I am no longer attached to anyone.
I get to live the life that my mother wasn't able to live.
