Last night I dreamed another re-occurring dream; I am driving a vehicle up a very steep hill, and before I reach the top, I panic and usually wake up. The road is so steep, that the vehicle has the potential to fall backwards, end over end, back down the hill. I usually awaken freaked and happy I was spared.
Last night however I reached the top in my dream.
And, I saw beautiful sights.
I had, however, followed a woman who offered to lead the way. I just trusted her and followed.
While in the shower, it came to me, that I am following women into the hike.
I am trusting and doing as they say and it will lead to beautiful sights, new experiences and a sense of accomplishment.
I wonder about that dream that has a steep hill and one I panic on.
What caused me to panic over big dreams?
What did I fear so bad about reaching the top?
What had me 'feeling safe' when I didn't complete the steep climb?
Or more comfortable and content with failing?
The dream continuing on over the top and into a wildly beautiful landscape was so much better than waking in fright of falling.
And as I think of the following a woman of confidence...it could easily be me and my commitment to myself.
While it is extremely helpful to have leaders knowing what we need to do to be a successful 100 mile hiker...it is also key to have self confidence in your ability to try and then do each new strength builder.
To begin in a weakened state and continue to reach towards the next goal.
There are moments this hike has me tearful and we are 274 days before we reach the trail.
The composition of the women I am hiking with.
The strength and dedication it will take to arrive there.
The wonder of how it will feel as we walk out at the end.
How we will change and what it will mean to us all.
The hill is steep...and each of us has to walk on our own.
Following the leader...
Self-Confidence.
