In listening to the book, "Ghost Boy" by Martin Pistorius, I had so many moments of incredulousness.
First, after not being able to communicate, when he finally did, he didn't know that others could choose not to listen.
He had thought, IF I could only speak, others would hear.
Words spoken have nothing to do with the listening ear.
The listening person has a set perspective they may not be able to change.
While I have a voice, and a body that moves, my words often useless.
Like gibberish flowing forth.
What I also envisioned were so many whose lives looked like Martin's body.
Stuck; unmoving.
Even perhaps how they would like to move and change, but remain frozen in their life station.
Whether it be stuck in a strict religion or in a life where they feel unable to do as they wish.
How many of us are really free - body, mind and soul?
How many of us authentically live and speak?
While he had physical limitations and for many years unable to communicate, we are in essence free; but just as stuck as he was.
While he was thought to be a vegetable, others did horrible things to him, in front of him and at him. He was aware; but unmovable.
He couldn't get himself out of harms way.
And, yet we have words and mobility and often remain locked in a wall-less prison.
It is incredible what the mind can do and what fear or affects of abuse is capable of rendering useless in our worlds.
The fear and sorrow I see when others are unable to be truthfully free...leaves me breathless.
How it appears to be easier to remain stuck, than it is to walk through the fear in the mind...to a life of free choice.
While he literally was frozen in body and NOT mind. I know that the world is made up of people who are the exact opposite. Their minds will not allow their bodies to move in new circles.
Even with voices, they are not able to voice new choices.
To say "No" to someone or to say "Yes" to something new.
In reading this book, I can see how many take for granted the ability of free will, free speech and freedom to move. To express, to feel and engage in life with the unique signature of your very own soul.
I love this sign. "Do Not Anchor".
Many of us never leave the harbor of our childhood - its religion and circle of family. Our soul is captured at birth and never released.
Being free of mind, body and soul is our birthright.
It is our journey to set our self free.
I see my first 46 years of being trapped alive in denial
yet, unaware that I was.
Now that I know, I can't ever go back to allowing others to be the leader or director in my life. Or to have fear stand in the way.
Breaking the frozen paralyzing immobility isn't easy.
You will be stiff and uncomfortable and rusty.
It will be hard to pull back your life from others.
However, when you can dance freely in words and actions; there is nothing to compare it to. To pull up anchor and sail away...
It is like breathing or not breathing.
We are the ones who move our shadows.
Do not allow them to be locked in the prison of our fears!
Dare to speak, even when your legs shake or your voice is weak with fear.
It is the way out!
