You simply can't have holidays without family and thinking about family. Which I believe is why the holidays are so stressful. It makes you look at what you have or don't have.
There is a joining of two forces; those who are no longer here and those that are.
Clashing inside are the opposing emotions.
Torn by their insistence to be heard.
My mind can easily get drawn into the twisted mess of estrangement; eclipsing the calm beauty of my children and our world.
The christmas carols bring with them ghosts from the past. The wishes of things being different. And, I have to keep my focus on the reality at hand. Grateful that I can celebrate the songs; truly.
I do have the silent night, holy night.
and, peace and love in my relationships.
What I have found is the more rested I am the easier it is to not succumb to the negative slides backwards. I can breathe in this moment of time.
My lights.
The gifts I will be giving.
My heartfelt wishes of goodwill to men...and women. To have the courage to say and be You!
Merry in your soul!
